Cntracast!

"sorry" said no one ever.

i always feel like a punching bag. ive been walked all over by almost everyone i know. any and all family members, my friends, anyone ive ever spoken to, even people i havent. it used to get me mad and really pissed off so id try to be an ass back. i think ive just been really dulled out though, ive just become half-numb to it. even though ive almost never gotten an apology from the people who walk over me. i really shouldnt care though, ive been told much worse things than what i was called today anyway.

maybe its cause i actually think of this person as my friend? or maybe im just a whiny crybaby bitch. i cant fucking tell at the moment. i just feel exhausted and not particularly happy at the time of writing this. so i really shouldnt hold anything against anyone. i dont really talk about how i feel so they wouldnt know i already was having a shit day.

i got to get an ending in the baroque game on saturn. i didnt get the real ending though, im not actually sure how to do that. one of the worst things about older games is how vague they are. this has been talked about to death but i still feel like people arent willing to fully apply that mentality. to follow that mentality fully, you'd have to admit most 2d zelda games are way too vague to be good. of which i know people will never admit, and thats fine but like dont say vague=bad if you arent gonna follow that fully, PUSSY.

still havent beat sotn, i found out about the supa secret bullshit or whatever. the game is getting hard now, its still fun just hard. i also really wanna play some old pc game named gothic. it looks really neat, it's graphics remind me a bit of tes iii but "better". i saw it in some video talking about a polish 40 year old dad who played gothic? what the fuck was i even watching? i dont even fuckning remember.

on a music related note, i listened to an album named Golden BP. i never rate shit 5 stars unless i really like it, but fuck i liked this. i would get it physically, but it seems to only have came out on cd. of which, it seems like is rare or something :(. maybe ill get it someday if i ever find an ebay listing for a good price. alongside all the other shit i want off of ebay.

i didnt get to work on the website this weekend. the time i was gonna set aside to work on it got taken up by someone. so sad, but ill get around to it. coming soon or whatever.